UGH ! Guys I am so sorry. I specifically said…
“Look out for another post before we go on vacation”
LIES. I just ran off to my staycation.
Yes, staycation… so could I have written? YEP
Did I? Yep!
So where is all of this content?
Well for now, it is the deep dark pages of the notepad in my iPhone… I am that person.
Sh*t has been just TOO real lately friends. Like in the world… I try to stay knowledgeable on current events… I was great about it in college. I don’t want to sound ignorant but I make it a point to avoid my once favored news channels now. How do you look at the TV and see people that look like you being killed by people who are meant to protect you then see your protectors killed all on the same channel… then turn around to a living room full of fairy dust and blissful toddler imagination, with your sanity in tact? It’s terrifying. I talked myself out of running to the store the other night for milk and icecream for two reasons… 1: I don’t need to be spending 5 dollars on Talenti and 2: because it was after dark. I live in a safe area and I do not think I have ever been targeted by anyone… but at this point I am not scared of law enforcement or BLM (not that there are protests in this area that I have seen)… I am afraid of violence in general… the past month has just been brutal on my mom mind… on me as a human being — no skin color, no sexual orientation… Just as a person who cares truly about other people… There is no need for further identification. Just as person with a heart full of love and a mind full of worry all you want to do is shield your children… and pray…
That could just be me.
Other than that my staycation has been a hustle by choice… I will never stop working… and I am finally able to choose my projects and delegate my time and truly develop some amazing things that I cannot wait to share with the world!
But… last week…
I took a pause. For a moment I have been waiting for since my daughter was born.
MY ABSOULTE BEST FRIEND…
MET MY DAUGHTER FOR THE FIRST TIME!
My heart melts just reliving it in my head…
- Obvi we have facetimed back and forth and had phone conversations and social media… so there was never a disconnect between the three of us. But there is no better feeling than having the person you reach for during your highest and lowest times, back in your arms.
Wait, I am being rude …(blame my 3 day mental disconnect from society) Let me tell you about the man receiving these praises…
My brother is 5 years older than me and we have been connected at the hip since I graced the world. (The anniversary of that special date is coming up next Thursday. Just so ya know) ANYWAY– being 5 years older my brother was always burdened with the task of watching me… and despite my many attempts to end his reign… he took greatest care of me. When we got older, he became my partner in crime. I guess I passed the many tests of being locked in the basement by his idiot friends and having to clean his room to avoid my dad knowing what a badass I was when he was out. My brother taught me how to drive, how to eat (neatly) on a first date, how to pump gas in the freezing cold, how to fight (which I would never do !). Outside of me, my brother was an amazing dude growing up… he always had a ton of friends, many of which are still around to this day. I envied his charisma, he could make anyone smile just by entering the room. He is still so silly and dramatic and lovable. This was probably the greatest time I had with my brother because we are GROWN UPS. We were running the streets (ridiculous term my dad always uses when you are anywhere besides home) with a car seat now.. and it was like there was not 700 miles separating us for the past two years .
I could not squeeze him tight enough.
Outside of those couple of things my mini hiatus was just much needed break.
I snagged some cuddles from Fi.
I caught up on trash tv
I traveled outside of my comfort zone
I looked at a city from 22 stories up, amazed….unafraid
I slept. I MEAN SLEPT.
I set some goals
I forgave some hurt
I was happy
I am happy…..
Now that I am recharged… Remember how I said I was working on some amazing things? Well if you follow my social media accounts…you’d see my mentions of big changes to come. Real quick: No I am not engaged… or pregnant… or moving to a far away land. I am getting a little ballsy and releasing everything to everyone at the same time…. so family friends and followers. It will be news to everyone…
But in the meantime, I will be generic posting (trends and things that will give you life, maybe some updates to my photography page…etc etc) until I can publish all of the “notes” in my phone (legal mambojumbo) that is unless I have guest submissions or topic requests! Post them on any of our social media accounts!! I have had some people message and ask “how hard is it to be a single parent and is it worth it?” or “How to balance school/career and an infant? ” which is awesome and I have a guest submission on one of these topics that I am excited to share (there are some other awesome single parents out there hustling) I am going to do another throwback Thursday story (like the flashback Friday virginity post) once I run it by everyone involved. So that’s what there is to look forward to. I am always checking my messages and stuff so I am not disappearing completely. Trust me it is worth it.
If you want some irresistible sarcastic humor that you might gain something from you can do what I have been doing with all of my time in the car lately- PODCASTS! My new love affair. Do your heart a favor and step away from Facebook… backspace that ridiculous Hilary tweet… and listen to:
The Brilliant Idiots -Charlemagne Tha God and Andrew Schulz (aka my future husband). Its hilariously relevant without being overwhelming! If you watch Guy Code or Uncommon Sense you already know how funny these two are.
SUPER explicit! Not for kids… or even teens!
If that is not quite ratchet enough for you look into “The Read”-Crissle and Kid Fury. I had no idea who these two were – I knew Crissle from uncommon sense but this is a whole other level of great. This is easily when you and your best friend sit on the couch scrolling through Facebook going back and forth with “hmmm , why did so and so post all that” (maybe that’s just me and friends…) but… its an informed look at hip-hop and pop culture with a bit of shade and lots of tea. Lets not pretend we all don’t enjoy gossip every now and then (specially when it has NOTHING to do with you). Hilarious escape from reality. *again, super explicit.
If you just want to know some stuff… if you just want to sit back and absorb information… try the Embedded podcast from NPR…. yes… NPR… What? I can’t be a ratchet intellectual?
Embedded reports the news stories worth hearing but you would have to search for on your own. These podcasts go deeper into these stories and they are GOOD. Amazing reporting –every detail is clear. Two episodes that REALLY stood out to me, I mean I seriously think about these everyday are:
1: The House– the first episode of the series. The host explores an HIV Outbreak in Indiana that was onset by the abuse of a powerful painkiller. It is really amazing to hear the change in people as they are growing increasingly dependent on a drug that is truly ruining their lives.
2: The League– This is a few episodes in… I am not super “sportsy” to be real I almost skipped past this one… but if you are gonna binge, you have to commit. I am glad I did! This one goes inside of the NBA’s minor league… the “D” League… for the good enough players waiting to be drafted to a major team..if ever… this story is gripping..
Check it out! And let me know what you think! I am going to run because I am currently “that person” in the coffee shop with 2 minutes left on my meter!
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Speaking of “following”(real quick I swear!) do adults still use twitter? If so… for what? No shade I just want to know. I deactivated my twitter about a year ago because I kept getting hacked… but the hacker wasn’t posting horrible things about me… he was posting horrible things about himself… weird… oh well. So anyway, I have been twitter free for about a year and I was reading about the celeb tweets about the BLM movement and all that and
snooped I mean stumbled over to my little cousin’s twitter page and goodness… teenagers are the most terrifying human beings. They are mean as hell! I am so serious if she was not going in on one of her “ex bffs” (who I am sure has a twitter that she could tag but she’s not bout that life) She was COMPLAINING, past first world problems… this is a category of its own. Her tweets just looked like a MySpace survey… just answers to a bunch of personal questions that NO ONE ASKED. But that’s not even the best part… She does this thing I LOVE. She tweets like four or five tweets in a row of her personal business… she seems to take a break for an hour… then tweets “I wish every0ne would mind their own mf business.” I’m in tears from laughing so hard. Phew. The moral of this story is the next tbt post may be full examination of my MySpace from middle and high school (yes, I still have the password) and my AIM account which I am shocked still works! Well not really “ebbysosickk” is impossible to delete. After seeing teenage twitter…I won’t be doing this for a trip down memory lane… I need to prepare for battle… we have 11 years until the monster is loose. I need to know what I am up against…
Thanks so much for the kind words and messages within this past week… they seriously make this easy and I love it–and you…