Trying something. Stay with me here.
If I had to describe my life to a complete stranger … Most accurately:
Imagine you’re standing on top of what seems to be the highest mountain looking down into a bunch of little valleys. You keep feeling like you see something flashing in the corner of your eye but every time you turn in that direction to see what it is, it’s dark and it looks like nothing has ever been there. Nothing could survive there … yet that fuckin flash man ! You could swear you see something there.
That flash girl… it’s me ….hayyyyyy
I know that sounds desolate but I’m confident in my little flash.
Basically things are crazy here. More than just normal mom/single mom, mid twenties, toddler chasing crazy. And just pretending the crazy isn’t happening … isn’t possible. And while I would prefer to not have the added outside stressors … might as well deal with it and keep my sanity intact.
I don’t want to keep putting the drama on my destiny’s child sized group of friends so how can I deal with some of these issues without dangerously internalizing stress?
That little flash. For me, that flash is a positive thought. Soooo cheesy.
So instead of unleashing my everyday complaints on the world to receive some form of a bigger world problem that is even higher on my scale of shit I can’t solve… I’m trying to meet each complaint/problem I have with something positive that relates to it and outweighs it. It sounds … unrealistic I’m certain.
Issue: a $200 speeding ticket is gonna jam up my grocery budget.
New solution: I have a coupon for the Justin’s almond butter so I can feel better about buying a $12 spread … kinda
It’s simple yet ridiculously so complex because it’s easy to get bogged down by many stressors at once that you have no choice but to acknowledge that little flash that’s keeping you from completely loosing your god given sense. It might be extra money from something you sold on letgo … or that you got out of a conversation with the ol “nod and smile” with your earbuds in, trick. Knowing damn well your phone has been dead for at least 25 mins now.
It honestly could be sitting in the car seat in the back seat of your car… no not your kid. The pack of fruit snacks they dropped getting out of the car at daycare and now you’re five mins from work and STARVING. That’s a win for everyone really. Hungry moms arent to be tested.
Seriously though. It took someone this week to really tell me to remember me. So even though it seems like I am flying a dangerously overweight aircraft, I cannot forget that I’m the pilot of this bitch and the damn thing wouldn’t have gotten off the ground without me. You can’t get to where you want to be if you aren’t treating yourself the way you deserve whenever possible.
So just in case you had a January like mine let me throw out some words of encouragement to get us to Valentine’s Day at the LEAST.
- Your SnapBack is real girl, go ahead and post that selfie
- Everyone’s car looks/smells like that. (Blame the child)
- Scandal is coming back this week. So even if your world is crashing down … it’s handled.
- Hair wraps are “in” so sleep in girl no one knows there’s naps under there.
- No one will even notice that dent. But I would park somewhere else … just in case
- Candy sales are about to be so so so real.
- If none of these work– play “best I ever had” by Drake and belt out the part where he says your pretty. And know you’re better than who ever he’s talking to because you don’t even have a roommate to be sneaking around #grown